The same way we have thought patterns we also have emotional and behavioral patterns. Becoming aware of these are equally as important as being aware of our thoughts.  

Remember, we are only focusing on becoming aware of the way we experience life, not forcing change upon nor running away from ourselves. 

If I was a therapist I would probably advice you to get to the root of why you feel this way, but I am no therapist. Instead I ask you to become aware of the way you operate, without judgment and without making excuses. Just like with your thoughts, take a step back, and just look. Learn to see the connection between thoughts and emotions, learn to sit with them, rather than reacting to them.