My mother is here visiting from New York. It is a remarkable feeling seeing your mother with your child. They are so beautiful together. I didn’t realize how exhausted I was until my mother arrived. Having her here is like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
Even though Stellan is a great partner and father, it’s been great to get some extra help around the house, to speak to my mother about motherhood and to simply be in her presence. At this time in my life there is a lot of healing taking place, and I feel so much gratitude.
Still there is a heaviness in my heart. I am mourning, but I’m not completely sure about what.