Day 13 (28 day cleanse)

I have been struggling these past couple of days, and lots of emotions have been brought up to the surface. I have been feeling feelings of failure and been somewhat critical towards myself because I haven’t been able to stick to the diet 100%. But I remind myself that each day comes with the opportunity to start again.  

Even though I feel this way at times I also see the upside of it. It shows me where I have to heal and therefore I can bring my attention to these parts of me. I can shed light upon the parts that I have been keeping in the dark for so long. 

This cleanse have allowed me to face myself in honesty once again. Seeing where I stand now, and I am now reclaiming my power. 

Today I meditated for the first time in a while, and it came to my attention that I have been chasing something that I don’t really feel good in. I noticed how my thoughts over and over again came back to one thing. And this thing was social media. I know that I want to share my journey, but I also want to be present during it. So the main goal isn’t to share it, but to experience it, and I feel like I lost that focus. I focused so much on sharing things on Instagram and then I started feeling anxious, because I didn’t feel like I was being true to myself. 

Social media can be addictive, and I got so caught up in it that I forgot to give myself love during these challenging times.  

Today during meditation it appeared to me that I am now heading a different direction then what I aimed for. So I take this time to recollect myself and my focus. Once again taking a couple of steps back.