Sometimes I just feel hopeless and get frustrated with the world. I feel as if life always been this way, a constant struggle. There has been many times I felt like just quitting and giving up, having thoughts of ending it all. There were times were I also attempted to end it, and those behaviors still lingers in my body.
Full moon is coming in, so there is nothing unusual to feel emotional around this time for me. But I happen to be in a different place in life now with a different mindset, something that I actually spent time to design. That doesn't mean that the past didn't happen. I can still feel the same pain, but the thought patterns that I have built for myself allows me to get through it and let go of it. The trick is to let it pass. The harder we hold on to things the more painful the experience will be, and so much longer for that matter.
I now see how easy it is to give power to our own thoughts, and how we allow them to control what ever experience we are having. But don't forget that you have the power over your thoughts, even though they are powerful, you give them their power. You have the power of turning thought into reality. You bring it into form.