For some time now I have lived in frustration. A frustration over many things such as money problems, health issues, misunderstandings in the relationships around me, let's just simply say that I have been frustrated with the now and the situations I would find myself in. I have been having a war inside of me between truth and denial. Being honest with where I am also seem to be very frightening to me.
To my surprise, being honest in the now, has actually been very liberating. In the past I would do what I though was easier, living in denial. Pretending. But a part of me was frustrated because I saw through my own lies, and once that happen, responsibility now had a different meaning.
My responsibility is to be honest with myself. This is who I am now. This is where I am. This is my life.
There were times when I found myself wishing that things should be different. And to my disappointment things could always be different, if you look at it that way. The harsh truth was that it didn't change the situation seeing what could have been different. Reality still remained.
My sister has triggered many ideas and thoughts in me and this is one of them. We can only get where we want to be if we start building from where we are now, honestly.